This is what I see...I am happily married, Ryan (Izzy's dad) is happily married, we all 4 individually love the Lord so much, and are devoted to one another (in couples) that the 2 couples can also be free to love and trust one another in life...not only with our mutual child (Israel), but also our individual children...that subsequent children could mutually see the others' parents as their second set, and as the others' children as their brothers and sisters. The closest worldly picture I have seen of this is of "God parents," I see not only Iz visiting Ry and his spouse and children but also entrusting them with my 2nd, 3rd, and 4th. And likewise, would love to sow into the lives of theirs. So that wherever we all may go, we may feel both free and secure.
I see this working well on many levels, but one I see clearly is in education. I see that we each may have strenghths and weaknesses, but with 4 loving parents rather than 2, responsibility can be divided taking away any unneccessary pressure, and the joys and satisfaction will be without division. I've never before seen so clearly the benefits and blessings He's presenting in this facet of my life...at any given time, Iz will have 2 places she considers 100% home and twice as many incredible parents...one to call for every situation...one for advice, another to laugh, one to listen, and another to pray.
Thank You Lord for vision. Thank Youfor seeing in advance my need and paving a totally new way! Thank You for Who You Are.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
(Holy) Sugar Daddy
This'll be quick, but I wanted to give a bit of encouragement to any of you who might be questioning how your bills will be paid and your children's mouths will be fed. I could tell you all day that He who created you is able to do above and beyond provision of basic need, but until He shows up and breathes life into the words, they fall on deaf ears. He blows! ;)
Last week, I had a quarter to my name after I THOUGHT that I emptied my wallet into the offering at Emanate (a gathering of young Jesus lovers that meet at Grace Center in Franklin, TN each Monday at 7:30). Then, I found out that the initial tax-return projection of -$180 was corrected to +$2,200! Then, I went out of town to see my grandparents for the weekend and escorted my grandpa to the bank where I simply thought he was making a standard deposit or withdrawal, but left with an envelope of $50s totaling +$1,000! Then, went to MO that night to see my other Granny who tucked another $50 bill into my hand! All that topped off by another few hundred dollars about to be deposited into my account by my daughter's father from across the country.
He told me He would provide. He did. He does. All day. Everyday. Thank You Abba for being You, beyond finances, You are Faithful! I have no reason to doubt the presence of Your plans in my life. You are here. You are alive. Very alive.
Last week, I had a quarter to my name after I THOUGHT that I emptied my wallet into the offering at Emanate (a gathering of young Jesus lovers that meet at Grace Center in Franklin, TN each Monday at 7:30). Then, I found out that the initial tax-return projection of -$180 was corrected to +$2,200! Then, I went out of town to see my grandparents for the weekend and escorted my grandpa to the bank where I simply thought he was making a standard deposit or withdrawal, but left with an envelope of $50s totaling +$1,000! Then, went to MO that night to see my other Granny who tucked another $50 bill into my hand! All that topped off by another few hundred dollars about to be deposited into my account by my daughter's father from across the country.
He told me He would provide. He did. He does. All day. Everyday. Thank You Abba for being You, beyond finances, You are Faithful! I have no reason to doubt the presence of Your plans in my life. You are here. You are alive. Very alive.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
New Thoughts From Old Thoughts
The Haftarah reading from Ezekiel 22 indicts Israel for failing to obey the Torah of Moses and consequently invokes the judgment of the LORD, which includes the Diaspora of the Jewish people:
"I will scatter you among the nations and disperse you through the countries, and I will consume your uncleanness out of you. And you shall be profaned by your own doing in the sight of the nations, and you shall know that I am the LORD."
Notice, however, that the purpose of the Diaspora is to "consume the uncleanness" out of the Jewish people, and therefore is ultimately restorative.
"I will scatter you among the nations and disperse you through the countries, and I will consume your uncleanness out of you. And you shall be profaned by your own doing in the sight of the nations, and you shall know that I am the LORD."
Notice, however, that the purpose of the Diaspora is to "consume the uncleanness" out of the Jewish people, and therefore is ultimately restorative.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Current Vision Statement
I am vessel completely surrendered
To Israel first, then to the nations
I'll go
to model holiness
give honor
and release Kingdom strategy
intentionally pressing into discomfort
in order that His glory be known!
To Israel first, then to the nations
I'll go
to model holiness
give honor
and release Kingdom strategy
intentionally pressing into discomfort
in order that His glory be known!
The Signet: "Just sign for Me..."
I dreamt of a ring I was in posession of. It was huge, gold, and had 9 large diamonds donning its surface, both in setting and throughout the band. There were very few places that were not covered with a sparkling diamond, but in one such place, there was a boldly embossed star of David.
I felt it was a gift, a signet of His power, might, and ultimately...more than His approval, His endorsement. Being this signet's keeper meant having His signature at my disposal.
I felt that it being in my posession, I had authority to either keep it hidden, wear it openly, use it, lend it out, share it, or even sell it for the great value it holds.
Here is the value of the diamonds, above and beyond monetary, the number 9 is significant to the number of spiritual gifts noted in 1 Corinthians 12: 1-9. And the value of the embossed star of David is that it is part of His signature, as a stamp, that bears weight in the whole earth but particularly among the Jewish people throughout the world...and dare I say in this geographical place, Israel.
This signet, whoever puts it on, bears not only wisdom, knowledge, power to discern various spirits, tongues, interpretation of tongues, prophecy, faith, power to work miracles, and healing, but the name of their Father!
This is important, so that they (those witnessing the power) understand that it is power credited to Him, brought forth by those He sent! It gives anyone who puts on said signet, credibility throughout the earth to demonstrate His power...to provoke Israel to jealousy!
God, in dealing with the us (the gentiles) during this present age, has the good of the Jews in mind, in seeking to provoke them to jealousy through us. (Romans 11:11) Such power, even counterfeit, is enough to provoke them, but add the mark of THEIR FATHER'S NAME, and the jealousy overtakes them. So, wear His signet. Bear His name. That is His holy strategy to call back His first born.
His invitation to us as He leaves us in charge of His accounts is this, "Just sign for Me."
I felt it was a gift, a signet of His power, might, and ultimately...more than His approval, His endorsement. Being this signet's keeper meant having His signature at my disposal.
I felt that it being in my posession, I had authority to either keep it hidden, wear it openly, use it, lend it out, share it, or even sell it for the great value it holds.
Here is the value of the diamonds, above and beyond monetary, the number 9 is significant to the number of spiritual gifts noted in 1 Corinthians 12: 1-9. And the value of the embossed star of David is that it is part of His signature, as a stamp, that bears weight in the whole earth but particularly among the Jewish people throughout the world...and dare I say in this geographical place, Israel.
This signet, whoever puts it on, bears not only wisdom, knowledge, power to discern various spirits, tongues, interpretation of tongues, prophecy, faith, power to work miracles, and healing, but the name of their Father!
This is important, so that they (those witnessing the power) understand that it is power credited to Him, brought forth by those He sent! It gives anyone who puts on said signet, credibility throughout the earth to demonstrate His power...to provoke Israel to jealousy!
God, in dealing with the us (the gentiles) during this present age, has the good of the Jews in mind, in seeking to provoke them to jealousy through us. (Romans 11:11) Such power, even counterfeit, is enough to provoke them, but add the mark of THEIR FATHER'S NAME, and the jealousy overtakes them. So, wear His signet. Bear His name. That is His holy strategy to call back His first born.
His invitation to us as He leaves us in charge of His accounts is this, "Just sign for Me."
Friday, January 7, 2011
Order and Rest
I write this from a dark car parked on a dark street in the middle of the night, because I am tired and my life lacks order and I have found this stillness to be reassuring. That while life around me is allowed to slosh about, I am fairly stable. Izzy is asleep in the back seat which lends me some sought after silence, enough to hear myself think. Life feels hard sometimes, but being surrounded by amazing people (pretty happy shiney people)inspires me to push through the dark lonely moments to enjoy the journey and beyond that...claim peace that outlasts it all.
From the beginning of this note to this point is the longest time I've had to catch my breath and rangle my mind to the sound of nothing but the wind since I don't remember when. But ahhhh, life IS lovely. It's just nice to have a moment to step back.
The dark car on the dark street where I sit happens to be parked in front of a home that houses my piano. I feel some tinkering coming on. If I can muster a seamless unbuckling, transferring to shoulder, walk through the cold unlocking the dark empty house laying the sweet baby to rest without awakening her, tinker is what I will do. I would like to tinker, hearing my right notes and the wrong ones, let my fingers and voice fumble about the large stringed instrument...love on it a bit while it loves on me. And, God, then I'd like to finish the last few chapters of Don Finto's Your People Shall Be My People. Then, Daddy, I'd like to look up and order his second book before I snuggle in tight to the dearest little girl I have the pleasure of knowing. I'd like to watch her eyes flutter in dreams and see her chest rise and fall.
All before I sleep.
Father, thank You or this rest.
From the beginning of this note to this point is the longest time I've had to catch my breath and rangle my mind to the sound of nothing but the wind since I don't remember when. But ahhhh, life IS lovely. It's just nice to have a moment to step back.
The dark car on the dark street where I sit happens to be parked in front of a home that houses my piano. I feel some tinkering coming on. If I can muster a seamless unbuckling, transferring to shoulder, walk through the cold unlocking the dark empty house laying the sweet baby to rest without awakening her, tinker is what I will do. I would like to tinker, hearing my right notes and the wrong ones, let my fingers and voice fumble about the large stringed instrument...love on it a bit while it loves on me. And, God, then I'd like to finish the last few chapters of Don Finto's Your People Shall Be My People. Then, Daddy, I'd like to look up and order his second book before I snuggle in tight to the dearest little girl I have the pleasure of knowing. I'd like to watch her eyes flutter in dreams and see her chest rise and fall.
All before I sleep.
Father, thank You or this rest.
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