Incomplete thoughts recorded here: what I thought needed discipline needed stewarding

Wow! Tonight I asked God about disciplining Izzy...and why sometimes I can't seem to get through to her. He made note that (right now) her inner-dialogue is yet louder than her outer-dialogue...so sometimes is seemingly out of touch (with me/us/her physical surroundings), but reminded me not to train that out of her and even THAT is mine to steward...to tend or to squelch. How does one teach a 3 year old to filter her thoughts/feelings/sensations? To take ownership of an unction or deny it space? To recognize her own thoughts as a product of logic, reasoning, or process, God's voice as creative, uninhibited, and kind, and release the rest? While I want her to LISTEN TO ME when I speak, I know that she will almost naturally as a part of the overflow of the above. There's unspeakable value in learning to hear and respond to the Voice of God.

Greater Things

This morning I walked into a grocery store, hungry...is if everything was normal...as if expecting something I'd find in there would satisfy. I walked through produce, meat department, dairy...the whole parameter while people in every direction filled their carts. I found myself being increasingly disgusted by the concept of filling my belly...when my spirit is in soooo much more need of filling. As dramatic as it may seem, I walked out empty-handed, eyes seeping tears, feeling as though I FINALLY SEE! What are these counterfeit wants?! I genuinely don't want for anything this world has to offer...at least not until my primary (spiritual) self is satisfied... Which is not. I want for more of what has not been seen! God, I want for more of what has not been experienced! In John 14:12 Jesus says, "I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, if anyone steadfastly believes in Me, he will himself be able to do the things that I do; and he will do even greater things than these, because I go to the Father." I want more of You within and all around me...to truly walk in said "greater things!"

distractions prohibited (waiting in "drafts" since 2010)

i have this nagging feeling that there are big things coming, as in already on their way, nearing. in this season, i feel like my level of being blessed depends on my level of preparedness.

examples i see...

a jag driving by an owner who wants to give it away. they naturally drive past a house without a driveway. i'm saying you'd better pave your path and make a covered space. designate spaces in your life for God to fill.

i see...

ripe fruit falling from rows and rows of trees. get your blankets and baskets out to catch what's been perfected for you to enjoy, else what lays on the earth to be collected will be eaten up by the worms of the earth.

i see...

a young man looking for his bride, but overlooking her because he mistook her for taken. she did not properly draw her boundary lines (before he came).

it is important to be ready before you see your blessing coming. it is important to make space. it is important to designate or dedicate (a thing, an idea, a space, a change) to Him.

Lord, here's to those who read this and register. Ready us. Show us where to lay our blankets. Tell us when to build a garage.

You told Moses when and how to build a boat though he'd never seen rain. You told the wise men which star to follow, though Jesus had not yet been born. You told me when to leave Raleigh, though I'd not yet been laid off.

You've told me names. You've shown me political events. You've shown me battles and told me the outcome. Lord, I want to walk closer to You than ever before. If being chaste means more of You, then remove my taste for all foods. Discipline me. I want Your wisdom!

Set me on fire, and send them to watch me burn!